Hannah wrote this songs in 2016.
Her first song Up For Air speaks specifically to what it feels like to go through a depressive episode and deal with suicidal feelings and impulses, as well as, how those around her have responded to these dark time. This song is targeted towards those who have no understanding of how a depressive episode feels (and doesn't feel). The theme is darker, but then again so is the experience.
Up For Air
Keeping paces with racing thoughts but I’m
Leaving early cause I can’t catch up
Ups are weaker and downs are deep
My mind is company I just can’t keep
When I feel it coming on
It won’t be long until I need to come up for air
No one understands but everyone knows
Pushing friends away, keeping demons close
Hear made up answers to questions I didn’t ask
You think solutions are just pushing past it all
People say it’s a season
I’m tired of looking for reasons to come up for air
Fill up the tub and imagine it’s a lake
Count out one pill or twenty decide how many I should take
It's not just a moment when some feelings surge
It’s a current always running just under the surface
Put my head under water
Has the deep found its daughter?
I don’t know if I’m gonna come up for air
Listen to the song here:
The other song that Hannah has shared is called Far Away. It is inspired by her relationship with God and trying to relate to Him during an episode. This song is rife with frustration as it can be hard to connect with anyone during an episode.
Far Away
There is love all around, just not for you
In the eye of the storm, no rain coming through
All your heartaches on deaf ears falling
Maybe it’s time to give up calling
Feel so far away
Feel so far away
You pass so close but I only grasp your shadow
I’ve heard a lot of stories of second hand miracles
Glowing tales of divine purpose
But when all that’s here for me are empty bottles
It’s hard to think that it’s all worth it
Feel so far away
Feel so far away
You pass so close but I only grasp your shadow
Is there anything here for me
Is there anything
Listen to the Song here:
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