Okay, But Not Content

Being in your mid-20s can be the worst.

Don't get me wrong I love parts of it. I love that I am no longer a child and I have the freedom that comes with that. I love that even though I am an adult, I can still do crazy, impulsive things. I am about to drive 13 hours with friends to see friends for a couple days and then drive 13 hours back and go right back to work. I know that I will not be able to do that at many other stages in life. I decide what I want to do. I can watch what I want, I can do what I want, and I can go where I want and I don't have to worry about anyone else.

At this point, you are probably wondering why I started with the statement that I did. The reason behind why I think this stage of life can be the worst is the conversations. When I enter a conversation with anyone who is a different age than I am and even people my own age there are certain questions that always come up. Some these are:

       So are you married?
       Are you dating?
       Have you found that special someone?
       Do you love your job?
       Is that what you want to do for the rest of your life?
       What do you want to do with the rest of your life?
     
Don't get me wrong some people genuinely care, but there are some that prying for information, judging you, or waiting to give you advice. You can tell the different from the genuine people from the obnoxious ones easily. The obnoxious ones use phrases like these:

       Back in my day...
       If you were really trying...
       Singleness is a gift...
       I know this nice girl...
       You really need to figure your life out...
       At my age, I had my life together...
       You're not trying hard enough...

I will admit it isn't as cut and dry as I make it sound. There are genuine people who will use these statements and there are obnoxious one that will belie their true intentions. The point that I am making is ask better questions. Don't stay at small talk. Go deeper. Ask me about my hopes and dreams. Ask me about why I love this stage of my life. Ask me about the fears I have.

The blanket answer to the questions is that I am in a transition period in my life. I am loving parts of it and hating parts of it. I am doing okay, but I am not content. Honestly, I will probably never content with my life here on Earth. I am not meant to and that is okay.