Nervous As Hell

So no sooner did I finish my last post, then did I get hit with another wave of self doubt. I will admit that I am out of shape and I haven't seriously lifted for close to two years now. Though the people at Omaha Barbell are super friendly, they also seem to be very fit and I feel out of place. I know that everyone probably isn't at fit as they look and that I am just feeling insecure, but perception is reality. I fell like when I am in the gym that everyone is looking at me, waiting for me to do something wrong so they can throw me out and tell me I don't belong. This is a lie that I am letting myself be told, by the world, by the enemy, and by myself. I hate this part of myself and this is part of what I want to improve this year. I need to stop passively listening to the lies and start actively telling myself the truth. I may make a fool of my self in the gym, but they won't throw me out they. If I make a mistake there are already people who will step in and educate me and then from that I can grow into a better person both physically and mentally.